Choosing A Path In Life Is Never Easy

Hi everyone!

I am so sorry for not posted a lot this week. I've had some really important decisions to make, and I want to share them with you all.

In my previous posts I wrote about the troubles I've been having with trying to get into university (if you haven't read them, then you can click here and here). It was a horrible feeling to know that there was a slight possibility that I wasn't going to get in this year. It was a waiting game and all I could do was hope and pray that someone would drop out, so I could take there place. And they did just that.

A few nights ago, I received a message from the university saying "Congratulations, you have a place on the English course blah blah blah". At this stage fireworks should have been going off and I should have had a huge smile on my face. But there was no smile, instead a cold shiver went down my back and I burst into tears. They lasted all night and I cried most of the next day.
I thought I was crying because I was happy with the news, I wasn't. I realised that an English course wasn't what I wanted, it never was and it never will be.

I had to think long and hard on what I was going to do. Was I going to accept the place at uni and spend 4 years studying for something I don't want? Or follow not only my hear but my dreams and take an online journalism course?

Well, I'm pleased to say that I have made my decision, and I've decided to....decline my university place. I felt that my heart wasn't in it, and that it wasn't fair on someone who did want to do the course. As I may have said in another post, my dream is to become a journalist, and by taking the NCTJ online course I'm one step closer to achieving that.
I cannot tell you how happy I feel now that I have made up my mind. This course isn't going to be easy, but I'm prepared to do whatever it takes.

Choosing a path in life is never easy, but you have to do what you feel is right. You only get one change to live, so go take the risk and listen to your heart, because as the actor, Michael Cain "Life is not a dress rehearsal"

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I'm Still Alive

Hey everyone!
This is just a quickie to say no I'm not dead, I'm very much alive and to say sorry for my lack of posts.
It's been a roller-coaster of a week. I found out on Thursday that I have a very big chance of actually going to university this year. I never thought this would happen, but it turns out that I am number 3 on the waiting list for an English Degree. It's not the course I wanted but I'm willing to take it. So I'm really excited yet nervous at the same time, because they could turn round and say sorry but nobody has dropped out of the course. But I'm keeping positive :)

I just wanted to say that I haven't given up on my blog and my readers/followers, because it always puts a smile on my face to know that you lot are out there reading about my crazy life, beauty and fashion reviews etc. That last part sounded really mushy lol!

Anyway, I've got some blog posts and ideas on the go, so hopefully (fingers crossed) they will be up soon.

If you've got any ideas on blog posts for me, then comment down below. I always love hearing from you guys.

Cheerio my lovelies xxx

University Update

Hey everyone!

I'm sorry that I haven't posted anything in the last few days, I've been a bit down. :(

 

To those of you that read my post on Sunday you will know that I had a meeting with the University of Murcia. As I said in the post, I was really nervous about going and didn't know why that had asked me to see them.

 

Well I went....and its not very good news I'm afraid. They didn't offer me a place, as the last vacancy went a few hour before me. I was devastated. They said that they would keep me on another waiting list, to see if any other places come up, and that they would call me sometime in October.  

 

On the journey back home my mind went into overdrive. I couldn't really focus on what my dad was saying, because all I could think about was what I was going to do. In my head I could see the University dream moving further a further away until I couldn't see it.

 

I was a mess, but somehow my dad said that it was ok, and that things happen for a reason. He helped me see that if I didn't get into Uni in October, then there were other options for me to take. Not everything was bad. I had to stay positive for my own sake.

 

As I'm learning now, life isn't always that easy and we don't always get what we want, but we've got to stick with it and never give up on ourselves. Never let the dream stay a dream, someway or another we've got to make it a reality. We've got to make the most of life!

 

Again, I apologise for not posting in the past few days, I wanted a bit of time to get my head round the news.

 

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Waiting on Uni

This post is a little different to my other posts.

Tomorrow I have a meeting with the University of Murcia. I don't know why they have scheduled this meeting, because I'm still waiting on a place there. All I do know is that I'm so nervous as to what will happen, and slightly annoyed. This waiting has been going on now since the middle of July, and I'm still none the wiser as to whether or not I have a place at Uni or not.

I'll admit, I'm scared of what they are going to say tomorrow. All I do know is that I have to fill out some forms. But if I have to fill out these forms, wouldn't that mean I've gotten into university? I'm a nervous wreck at the moment.

Not begin accepted a place first time is disheartening, but to be told that there still isn't a place for you after 2 months of waiting is even worse. Your constantly thinking about it daily. Its horrible and in a way also ruins your summer.  It could also ruin your life, because you want to study at uni but your told "no we don't want you because your grades aren't great" or "we haven't got the places".

I don't know what the next step will be if I don't get accepted. It maybe that I have to move back to the UK, which is something I would like to do, but on the other hand I'll miss my parents and friends.

I'm just going to have to wait and see. I really want to have the student life, studying and working. And Murcia is a beautiful city, that I would love to explore, but if the university says no then that life won't become reality.

So to the University of Murcia, its down to you. My fate is in your hands.